Monday, November 9, 2009

Bad day.

Today is a bad day. I just feel trapped. I feel like a bird in a cage. I could never be a small town girl....I could never live here, or even in Mackay (still small town by my standards,) forever. I get too restless. I'm tired of not having options. I'm tired and I've only been here 6 months. ::sigh:: I'm already over it. The more and more I read about all the stuff there is to do in Sydney and Melbourne the more and more restless I get. I can see why most people live in the capital cities here...I've only ever "met" (online) other Americans who've moved to Sydney. Nowhere else in Australia...they all just move to Sydney. I don't think they know how frickin easy they have it...not that I'm bitter or anything. :P

I guess I'm just not at all a small-town girl. I'm too high-maintenance and maybe even too prissy. It's not that I think I'm "too good" for Moranbah....I just feel like I'm having to re-evaluate all the interests I've developed over my lifetime like fashion, culture, food, shopping, etc. and replace them with gardening, crafts, and bird watching. I guess I also have an affinity for being surrounded with convenience. I don't ever want to have to drive more than 15 minutes for absolutely anything with very very few exceptions and I CERTAINLY don't want to drive 2 hours just to see a movie or go shopping. I think I just managed to pick one of the most difficult place in the country to transition from the USA and I'm trying not to resent the town at the moment because of it....

I sound like a spoiled brat throwing a tantrum and maybe I am. I don't want to live in the middle of nowhere anymore. blehhhh I know I grew up with more convenience than even the average American which just comes with living in such a huge metro (4th largest metro in the country with something like 6.5 million people vs. the 6,000 in Moranbah) so I'm not surprised things are so different...I just didn't expect the difference to affect me so much. I guess I'm just that spoiled.


  1. Awww it will get better!

    I'm not a city girl by any means and I grew up in a pretty small town, but I still didn't have to drive more than 15-20 minutes to go do something fun or get something I need. I don't think I'd do well in the town you live in now if I had to drive hours to go do anything! I guess we're both spoiled :P

  2. Awww princess!
    I think you're so awesome for taking a huge step and moving so far away to be with your hubby! Not everyone has the strength to do that, and you did! Things will get better, I promise! <3

  3. It will be OK. Sounds like homesickness more than anything. You have a wonderful hubby! Focus on that and being together. If you lived somewhere else, he wouldn't be able to have such a good paying job and you might be even more stuck in some ways. When you get home you can see how blah it really is here!You and Chris have a life togeather!Think of the movie White Christmas and the song about "Counting your blessings instead of sheep"!You do have many blessings, it's just hard to see when you are feeling down!

  4. Sydney is LAME.

    Melbourne is the bees knees.


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